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Name: Trent
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Age: Over 18 lmao
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CHARACTER INFO
Character Name: Erwin Smith
Canon: Attack on Titan
Age: Late 30s
Canon Point: Immediately prior to death, AKA Chapter 84 of the manga, Midnight Sun.
Wiki Link(s): here
SOMNIA-SPECIFIC QUESTIONS
1. Dreams are how Sleep chooses you. What might draw your character into Somnia— a wound, a wish, a weakness? Would they follow the dream, or run from it? With the timeline he's being pulled from, it feels appropriate for the dreaming to be viewed, at least at the start, as either the last synapses firing before death, a dream that feels like ages but only really lasts a few seconds. Alternatively, or possibly after the first stage, I think it'd be easy for him to view it as some kind of afterlife he never conceptualized as existing until he learned the reality of it. All this to say is that it's pretty likely he'd follow the dream because it would feel inevitable. He has nowhere else to go, nowhere else to be, and at first it would feel like the only option to move forward. Grasping at the dream and following its course (and later, trying to sway the trajectory of it) is a little like a metaphorical version of clawing his way out of the grave.
2. Somnia is a slow unraveling—of worlds, and of selves. How does your character respond to fear, transformation, and losing control? Do they fight, adapt, collapse? As with many things, that depends. He's done all of the options listed there (and in that order, even) - Erwin is great at fighting and adapting, and he spent much of his life doing just that in response to fear and surrounding circumstances. Moving forward, adapting, and using those adaptations in the fight for survival and knowledge are easy for him. Giving up really did only come for him at the very end when there were no more options, and even then it was more unconscious than anything. Actions taken consciously are what define him, and a full loss of control would shake him. He would fight it, do his best to wrest control back from wherever it's escaping to, and, after the initial disorientation and wavering beginnings he would fight tooth and nail to keep a hold on himself until he absolutely couldn't anymore.
3. Connection is the only constant. What kind of bonds does your character form— fast and burning, slow and wary, deep and desperate? How might that shape their time in this world? It depends. His strongest bond is one he fought to forge, and he was ready for it from the beginning while the other half was, let's just say, Not Seeing The Appeal. A combination of fast and burning along with deep and desperate there, even if it never moved forward in other ways before he died. Other connections than that are complicated. He holds the connections of loyalty tight, and the responsibility to those working and serving under him are also a sort of connection. But they don't have the same associations as a real, deep, personal connection. He knows his soldiers' names, knows when they enlisted, when they fought, and when they died, but there's still a sense of being at arm's length: Erwin, as the consummate leader figure, was a little too larger than life for many close relationships with those he interacted with, though he did have a few he would call close and hard-won.
4. What are two major forces in your character’s personality that are often in conflict? (Ex: logic vs emotion, power vs guilt, obedience vs rage, etc.) I actually think the power vs guilt suggestion is pretty fitting. Not in a typical way, though; it's not a matter of simple abuse of power, it's a matter of what power does versus what it costs. Erwin leads troops out on missions for the sake of humanity, to push the boundaries out for how much space people can take up, to get back land that was taken from humanity by titans. And while that's in his timeframe and experience a very noble goal, there's the fact that for Erwin, his personal goals are, while not incompatible with that, are more selfish in nature. He wants knowledge. He wants to understand things, to know how titans tick, where they come from, why they do what they do. And yes, that knowledge would definitely help humanity's goals as he and those around them see the world, but for Erwin, the knowledge is the goal. His insatiable need for knowledge is a huge driving factor for him, and at the end of his life it becomes pretty clear for the reader that it does weigh on him, that he knows he's sent countless soldiers, people who looked up to him and served under him and trusted his judgment, to their deaths in the pursuit of this knowledge. And again, despite the fact that the knowledge would absolutely serve humanity's goals as a whole, it still feels like that rings hollow for him, or at the very least that he knew enough that he was essentially sending his subordinates into a woodchipper for the slightest bit of land and scraps of knowledge. The imagery of just how many bodies piled up under his leadership is in many ways grotesque, and his last moments are spent in the guilt of those losses. Guilt over power, yes, and guilt over how that power was used and for what purpose.
VESSEL SELECTION
Which Vessel Type are you choosing: Token or Offering? Offering
Why does this Vessel type feel appropriate for your character? I think it's an interesting mirror of Erwin's character arc in some ways, at least in a loose metaphorical way. The pursuit of knowledge drove him through life, and it becomes clearer at the end of his life that he knows his quest for knowledge and his pushes forward was at least tangentially when not literally, the cause of the deaths of so, so many people who served under him, and atop that pile of bodies the shape of him feels monstrous. It also has an interesting subversion of what actually happens at the end of his life: instead of literally becoming the "monster," death is chosen for him instead. Forcing him to deal with monstrousness, both mental and physical, digs deep into the marrow of who he is as a person.
Choose one OR list three subclass options within your chosen Vessel type that you think would suit them: Leshy!
Samples: TDM TL + threads
Name: Trent
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Age: Over 18 lmao
Invite Link: here
CHARACTER INFO
Character Name: Erwin Smith
Canon: Attack on Titan
Age: Late 30s
Canon Point: Immediately prior to death, AKA Chapter 84 of the manga, Midnight Sun.
Wiki Link(s): here
SOMNIA-SPECIFIC QUESTIONS
1. Dreams are how Sleep chooses you. What might draw your character into Somnia— a wound, a wish, a weakness? Would they follow the dream, or run from it? With the timeline he's being pulled from, it feels appropriate for the dreaming to be viewed, at least at the start, as either the last synapses firing before death, a dream that feels like ages but only really lasts a few seconds. Alternatively, or possibly after the first stage, I think it'd be easy for him to view it as some kind of afterlife he never conceptualized as existing until he learned the reality of it. All this to say is that it's pretty likely he'd follow the dream because it would feel inevitable. He has nowhere else to go, nowhere else to be, and at first it would feel like the only option to move forward. Grasping at the dream and following its course (and later, trying to sway the trajectory of it) is a little like a metaphorical version of clawing his way out of the grave.
2. Somnia is a slow unraveling—of worlds, and of selves. How does your character respond to fear, transformation, and losing control? Do they fight, adapt, collapse? As with many things, that depends. He's done all of the options listed there (and in that order, even) - Erwin is great at fighting and adapting, and he spent much of his life doing just that in response to fear and surrounding circumstances. Moving forward, adapting, and using those adaptations in the fight for survival and knowledge are easy for him. Giving up really did only come for him at the very end when there were no more options, and even then it was more unconscious than anything. Actions taken consciously are what define him, and a full loss of control would shake him. He would fight it, do his best to wrest control back from wherever it's escaping to, and, after the initial disorientation and wavering beginnings he would fight tooth and nail to keep a hold on himself until he absolutely couldn't anymore.
3. Connection is the only constant. What kind of bonds does your character form— fast and burning, slow and wary, deep and desperate? How might that shape their time in this world? It depends. His strongest bond is one he fought to forge, and he was ready for it from the beginning while the other half was, let's just say, Not Seeing The Appeal. A combination of fast and burning along with deep and desperate there, even if it never moved forward in other ways before he died. Other connections than that are complicated. He holds the connections of loyalty tight, and the responsibility to those working and serving under him are also a sort of connection. But they don't have the same associations as a real, deep, personal connection. He knows his soldiers' names, knows when they enlisted, when they fought, and when they died, but there's still a sense of being at arm's length: Erwin, as the consummate leader figure, was a little too larger than life for many close relationships with those he interacted with, though he did have a few he would call close and hard-won.
4. What are two major forces in your character’s personality that are often in conflict? (Ex: logic vs emotion, power vs guilt, obedience vs rage, etc.) I actually think the power vs guilt suggestion is pretty fitting. Not in a typical way, though; it's not a matter of simple abuse of power, it's a matter of what power does versus what it costs. Erwin leads troops out on missions for the sake of humanity, to push the boundaries out for how much space people can take up, to get back land that was taken from humanity by titans. And while that's in his timeframe and experience a very noble goal, there's the fact that for Erwin, his personal goals are, while not incompatible with that, are more selfish in nature. He wants knowledge. He wants to understand things, to know how titans tick, where they come from, why they do what they do. And yes, that knowledge would definitely help humanity's goals as he and those around them see the world, but for Erwin, the knowledge is the goal. His insatiable need for knowledge is a huge driving factor for him, and at the end of his life it becomes pretty clear for the reader that it does weigh on him, that he knows he's sent countless soldiers, people who looked up to him and served under him and trusted his judgment, to their deaths in the pursuit of this knowledge. And again, despite the fact that the knowledge would absolutely serve humanity's goals as a whole, it still feels like that rings hollow for him, or at the very least that he knew enough that he was essentially sending his subordinates into a woodchipper for the slightest bit of land and scraps of knowledge. The imagery of just how many bodies piled up under his leadership is in many ways grotesque, and his last moments are spent in the guilt of those losses. Guilt over power, yes, and guilt over how that power was used and for what purpose.
VESSEL SELECTION
Which Vessel Type are you choosing: Token or Offering? Offering
Why does this Vessel type feel appropriate for your character? I think it's an interesting mirror of Erwin's character arc in some ways, at least in a loose metaphorical way. The pursuit of knowledge drove him through life, and it becomes clearer at the end of his life that he knows his quest for knowledge and his pushes forward was at least tangentially when not literally, the cause of the deaths of so, so many people who served under him, and atop that pile of bodies the shape of him feels monstrous. It also has an interesting subversion of what actually happens at the end of his life: instead of literally becoming the "monster," death is chosen for him instead. Forcing him to deal with monstrousness, both mental and physical, digs deep into the marrow of who he is as a person.
Choose one OR list three subclass options within your chosen Vessel type that you think would suit them: Leshy!
Samples: TDM TL + threads